Wednesday, December 11, 2013

New Theory About That Light At The End of the Tunnel

 It occured to me just the other day that there is a grave danger (beside an approaching train) to seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.  Lately I have been in a sort of deep hole and while scrabbling aaround and digging away at the bottom hoping to manage to tunnel out to a better place I had  better be damned careful if I see light ahead.......when I emerge I may see nothing but a lot of Chinese looking folks..........digging without checking with a level could be disastrous......A person might even end up in Iran.......horrors.

OK.  The good news first.  After a rather awful month or so battling sciatica and the Blues I think I have finally won the struggle with sciatica.......except for a few twinges now and then my back has healed pretty much........I can even do my back strengthening (?) exercises again.....on those days when I can force myself to do anything that requires any sort of action aside from lifting a fork to my mouth.  I would not call my condition ippsy-pippsy, but it certainly is better and I am accepting that gratefully. I find myself still doing the yoga pretel stretches mostly  because it amuses me that I can.  And it also feels good.  So what's wrong with that?  The fact is that after about 80 years, your body, which has served you faithfully despite your mistreatment of it, does begin to wear out in places.......places that are not renewable or replaceable, so the choice becomes very clear.  Either enlist some help in fastening a plastic baggy around your head or just keep on keeping on, just complaining a lot more and more loudly.  At this point I have chosen the latter, probably because I don't know anyone who isn't too chicken or too disinterested to twist the little twist tie for me.  Where are friends when you need them?

I haven't quite kicked the Blues  because my vision worsens daily and not only frustrates me and enrages me but scares the hell out of me.  I have no solution yet for the time when I can no longer see to fiddle around on the computer which is about the only visual thing I can still do thanks to a tiny window of working tissue in my right retina.  I can tell you one thing unequivicably..........having to read words letter by letter is really shitty, not to mention difficult, exhausting, etc.  Hell, with long words, I often forget what the beginning was by the time I get to the end,  Very bad for any kind of quality cognition, I'll tell you......but I am not complaining.....it is bettter than seeing no letters at all.

Another sad note.........the fabulous finches are on my shitlist right now.  I am calling them the ferocious, dysfunctiuonal family of finches.  I do not know whether it was one of them or 3 of them but they apparently ganged up on the littlest female and murdered, killed, slew her to death.  Sob.  I consulted with the finch expert and he said it happens.....reasons not specific.  I was worried that her fella would waste away and mourn himself into an early grave, but he laughed at me and said he didn't think that would happen and did not even encourage me to get him a replacement ladyfriend.  Since I anthropormorphize more than Joe does I may or may not follow that advice.....I envision Mickey alone in his little nest basket at night, cuddling among the dried lettuce leaves he insists on dragging up there as acceptable nest material.....(hell, maybe it is....what do I know?).  I plan to observe as carefully as possible and take action at the first sight of a wobegone expression.  SPF....critters......can't live with them and (I) can't live without em.  Sigh.

My moans are very subdued today, you may have noticed.......mostly because I read Manzanita's heartbreaking  blog last nite describing a series of disasters topped off by the pipes in her ceilihng ffreezing and bursting leaving her standing in her kitchen in 7 inches of water while my friend in Illinois had her furnace break down over the week end.  OY.   My troubles are misicule in comparison.  My heart goes out to everyone having to cope with that dreadful winter cold.  It may sound odd, but I have never really liked California even after living here for 72 years.........I just have stayed here because of the weather.   As good a reason as any, I guess, especially from the month of November thru the month of March.  
We did not have fur lined snow boots when I was a youngster in Philadelphia winters but, by god, I sure as hell remember what a pain in the ass galoshes were (and what  a failure come to think of it.

Stay warm y'all.

Love, Lo




14 comments:

  1. Darling Lo- You continue to amuse and astound me.
    Thank you.

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  2. Lo, can you get someone to set your computer up for voice? I'd hate to miss you. I've learned all about SPF from you my dear and now have an outlet for my own frustrations with a deteriorating body! We old gals need to stick together. Love you! Daisy's Barbara

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  3. Yay for your sciatica going away; sad for your eyes; poor Mickey! (and you)...
    If 'tis possible, I love Daisy's idea of voice on your computer... Love & miss you ~ you & your dysfunctional finches!
    XOXO
    bobbie

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  4. Wow, Lo! Your blog is an intriguing stream of consciousness! I've regretted living in California (San Francisco Bay Area) all my long life. It bugs the SPF out of me that it never rains here and there are no discernible seasons. Hang in there, Lo, that's all we can do.

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  5. Dear Lo
    No,no....don't feel sorry for me because everything is under control. That first day was a bit of a surprise but the work people got in and the plumber did his thing and the restoration guys put up their big machines that suck up water and I copied Puss and headed for high ground. The upstairs did not have water damage because it's a different level in this funky old house. So that is where I'm hanging out.
    But thank you for your concern.

    I'm mad at that finch or finches, too. Murder ...
    cold-bloody murder.

    I'm happy to hear your report that some things are going better. I do so agree about certain parts going "bad" after 80. That was also the age when I finally realized "I was getting older." Bummer.

    You said you got the blues and I know what kind you mean. I keep thinking of some of the music blues you include in your posts. I love that music.

    Keep enjoying your pretzel yoga.
    Thinking of you......Manzanita

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  6. Those galoshes did not rise to the level of horrid.
    Insofar as those finches go, when I had procreating little birds, Carrie Nation (the only girl I ever had) pecked every husband except the last to death. When she reached finch menopause she booted him to the other side of the cage, and they continued quite comfortably. Carrie actually predeceased her last husband by a year or so. They actually have little societies, don't they.

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  7. Keep on trucking Lo, miss your posts!

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  8. I did not know the dirty little secret of those adorable finches. Nature has quite a sense of humor! So sorry about your eye problems. I know it is frustrating and worrisome. Glad you are feeling less pain though, and glad you can do some twisting and stretching because every little bit helps.

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  9. The finches are practically a soap opera! Sorry to hear of your eye problems. You need Dragon..i think that is a computer program that will type for you as you speak. :)

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  10. I looked up the Dragon program. You got to have it Lo!!!
    http://www.nuance.com/dragon/index.htm

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  11. I know you already have Dragon and I'm going to try it out even though you were swearing at it, for awhile. I'm assuming that's how you write now? Voice readback from the computer is possible but my experience with the voices was WTF ... worse than robotic.
    Take care ... sounds like you're hanging in there pretty well.

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  12. and these are the "golden years". I'm beginning to have my own doubts....

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  13. Lo. I am sure you can fix your computer to work for not seeing very well. There is all sorts of voice activated stuff available. Someone will be able to do it for you. Happy Christmas. You always make me feel happy.

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  14. Merry Christmas! Keep kicking into the new year.

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